Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Long Time No Post...

While continuing our research on all of the clinics in India, Brian and I have had quite the rough 4 months. We had frozen embryos left over from our IVF in February and underwent a Frozen Embryo Transfer in May.

The Good News: We got PREGNANT
The Bad News: I MISCARRED once again at 6 weeks and this makes 3 MISCARRIAGES in less than 12 months

In our hearts we know we are coming to the end of our journey with my own eggs and moving closer to Surrogacy in India. As a woman, I just had to give it my all before moving on to a Gestational Carrier. In my heart of hearts I am at peace with my journey as we continue to move forward....


  1. Oh, this road is so bumpy. So so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Some how, some day, we will get there, just will not be easy.

  2. Oh Coco, i feel your pain. I hope your peace travels through blogs because we are right behind you. As a woman we give it our all and the love of our lives do it for us. I wish you peace and comfort with your decision and very sorry to hear about your miscarriage.

    Its just not fair, but dont loose hope.

  3. You are wise to know and have the courage to be honest with yourself to consider Plan B. Good for you. Some people wrestle with that decision for years, losing precious time, only in the end to realize it was a decision they should have made a long time ago. Genetics only provides a physical shell for the baby; the spiritual entity that evolves and the essence of its soul is ultimately determined by those who raise and nurture it.
    Good luck

  4. I'm so sorry, 3 in 12 months is a lot to bear. I was the same, unexplained miscarriage. We ended up going with a donor, but if you are still producing eggs maybe a fresh transfer with your eggs is not out of the question. I completely agree with jon above, we are making bodies for our babies but their spirits are always with us waiting to come to us.

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  6. I'm so sorry to read about your loss. It is always so devastating and emotionally draining. One of the hardest things for me was the uncertainty of what to do next. The only advice I can give is to not give up if you really want a baby. There are many paths to parenthood. Unfortunately for some of us the journey is much longer and more difficult than others.

  7. I'm very sorry to hear about your losses. This journey is so tough and sometimes it does feel like there's no hope, but I promise you will get there. People who are determined to have a baby will have a baby.

    Congratulations on your decision to use a surrogate. I'm excited for you and can't wait to hear about your success!


  8. So sorry to hear of your loss.
    It sounds like you are now ready to move on to the next phase of your journey to become a Mum...
    None of this is easy but with strength, hope and love you can do it.
    I wish you well in your decision making.
    The strength you are gaining through this journey will make a GREAT Mum!!

  9. Thank you everyone so much for the heartfelt and encouraging words...